THAT GIRL IN BALI

I feel too much. Do you know how it feels, when you have so many feelings but can't share it to anyone? You have a lot of love to give, but no one around to turn to. I don't wanna feel sad about something that isn't real and doesn't exist. That would be stupid. Anyhow, I never want to slam the door. I might want to come back.

I measured things. It's not exactly the mature approach, but I was in rebound mode with someone who met the needs he couldn't. Of course, I know this isn't the reason to do things, to expect something back. But there's always the unaccounted variable with me. Why bad news always follow a request to be seated? ....and that's when I knew he really wasn't the guy for me. What am I writing? Am I just babbling?

Just catch this movie by myself this afternoon. Cina seorang anak baru di sebuah fakultas arsitektur, bertemu dengan Anissa, seniornya yg ternyata adalah seorang artis yang kesepian dan selalu terlihat sedih. Karena satu hal, mereka akhirnya sering menghabiskan waktu bersama. Cina and Annisa could not love each other because they called God by different names. Dari segi cerita, film ini punya skrip yang kuat and well research. Quite intelectual. Dibandingkan menonton Merah Putih , well, no offense doch. Untuk seorang sutradara berusia 25 tahun, film ini cukup mengena. Apalagi untuk yg pernah pacaran beda agama. Everyday story yang nggak berani diangkat sama sutradara-sutradara/ ph-ph kondang. Sunny Soon (Cina) dan Saira Jihan (Anissa) sebagai pendatang baru juga aktingnya bisa dikasih nilai 75. Skala 1-100. We need more movie like this. Bukan cuma sekedar horor-horor nggak jelas, atau cerita dengan konflik yang berlebihan. Cuma satu yg ganggu dari film ini, it should be film romantis, ...

Apparently I'm over jealous and slightly crazy, to like someone enough to want to meet them. I never figured that would be a bad thing, but in today's world apparently it is. I feel crushed and rather defeated. And I don't really understand it. Maybe I really am crazy, in trying to find someone who makes me happy. I don't know what to think at the moment. He signed off. And I honestly don't know if he'll be back online. Or at least to talk to me. Then again I barely know anything about him, but I'm drawn to him. Dating sucks.