THAT GIRL IN BALI

Kita, sama-sama manusia. Kita, sama-sama tidak tau di mana dan kapan nafas akan berakhir. Definisikan zinah, definisikan dosa. Apakah kita tau pasti siapa yang akan menghakimi? Apakah kita tau seratus persen apa itu zinah, apa itu dosa? Tidak perlu pintar untuk menghakimi orang lain. Tidak perlu pandai untuk menilai orang lain. Artikan hidup, artikan mati. Apakah kita tau siapa itu waktu? Apakah kita tau siapa itu apa? Kita, sama-sama punya dosa. Kalau dosa itu ada. Kita, sama-sama berzinah. Kalau, zinah itu ada. Senyum, tulus, lepaskan. Tuhan mengerti. ---- ~i'm a wise girl who kisses but don't love, listen but don't believe, and leave before i'm left~

here are the list of 31 things I will try to do before I turn 31. 1. give 31 gifts to 31 random people. (let see if you get lucky) 2. stick a post it on every ATM Machine I stop, all will be written: thank you, Universe 3. get a hair make-over 4. learn how to make sushi 5. bake my own birthday cake 6. learn 100 more German words 7. read all the unread books on my bookshelf 8. learn how to examine my car (in case of emergency (again)) 9. taste all menthol cigarette 10. make a table of pros & cons of guys I've been dating 11. sell some un-used stuff in my room (phew, I can end-up only with my bed) 12. try every menu on my favorite restaurant 13. sing a song and record it 14. get a publisher deal 15. buy an iPad 16. study geography (at least know where all the countries are!) 17. learn how to use a contact lens, and wear it for a day 18. go to the post office and send postcards to 5 random friends 19. be someone's assistant for a day (who wants me?) 20. watch more horror movie...

Dear future-smart-kick-ass-great-smile-book-movie-and-music-freak-husband, I wonder if I know you or have yet to meet you. Either way, I know I think about you all the time. You see, my life is already complete. I am a smart, well-rounded (literally) woman that has great life, great job and is responsible. I have my own hobbies, likes and interest. I would absolutely love to share them with you, providing that you find your way into my life. I wish your name is something beautiful but I can't be so sure. I want to think you're very tall but, not that tall. Anyway, I am not writing to you to ask your name or even what it is you look like so I will know you the moment I see you. The real reason I am is so I can tell you that I am no longer waiting for you. That doesn't mean I am giving up on you ever arriving or that I am going to date a million guys to compensate for your inability to adhere to my odd demand that you show up by the time I'm 31. Instead, it means that ...

seorang kakak, seorang sahabat, pergi sudah... kujumpanya tak lama, tapi ku tahu semua mimpinya... seorang teman, seorang keluarga, istirahat selamanya... kudengar suaranya, tapi tak kulihat wujudnya... hilang sudah sapaan pagimu hilang sudah canda tawamu kurasa lelahmu kurasa resahmu biar kusimpan maumu dan kutunjukkan padamu ......suatu hari nanti 9:27:54 PM ~i'm a wise girl who kisses but don't love, listen but don't believe, and leave before i'm left~

"Omar W Kusuma I may never find all the answers. I may never understand why. I may never prove what I know to be true. But I know that I still have to try. If I die tomorrow. I'd be alright because I believe. That after we're gone. The spirit carries on. (Dream theater) December 30, 2009 at 2:45pm via Facebook for BlackBerry " today, no, yesterday around 8ish, I received a phone call from Tendon. it was goes like this: tendon: popy, kamu di mana me: di bangka, kenapa ndon? tendon: udah denger Omar meninggal? me: hah? Omar? Omar mana? tendon: Omar's Coffee me: hah? hah? apaaaa? kenapa? booong ah.. apaan sih? tendon: beneran, coba telvon maycle, atau bayu, katanya kecelakaan motor.... I was shocked. Lutut rasanya lemas. Diam. Tak percaya. Trying to deny. Berharap hanya April Mop belaka. Tapi tidak. Berita itu benar adanya. Menyesal kemarin malam tidak mampir ke tempat kamu. But maybe, that's the way it should be. I just know...

I just visited a friend, a close friend today. Unfortunately she got Lupus and have been ill this past one year. She used to be a very active woman, we happened once to work in the same office. and seeing her just lying there and do nothing, it breaks my heart. really. Her parents has spent so much money for her medication, and now they're in need. she just weight 38kg now, and it's sad. I really wish for her health now. I will do anything I can do to help her. She still have the courage, she still have the spirit to live. Whoever read this, please pray for her and send so much gratitude for your health.

I have one nephew and one niece. Renee and Reia. Renee is 4 and Reia is going to turn 3 this September. Yesterday I was babysitting for my sister. Since she's a single mom, I think it's okey for me once in a while taking care of her kiddos on Saturday night. I'm not going anywhere either. And the kids, they are pretty adorable. They love stories, so every time I tell them stories about how they were being born, they both are very excited. They love jumping here and there too, well kids. I finally succeed to put them to bed on 10.30PM and my sister got home around 2.30 AM. I just love them to death.